Hysterical Funny how the doctors called her loony when she complained of pain that pulled her inside out for ten days every month. Maybe they advised she close her eyes and think of Harry Truman— this was the forties, after all, and a war was on; women simply had to go to work. She speaks of sudden bloody rivers that flooded the carpeted floor. She tells me how her patient mother scrubbed the hand-me-downs with bleach but could never make the fabric pure again. Silly of her to wish for better, or less, or more, when everyone told her the trouble would pass, that she should stop being so hysterical.
It passed. Her belly met the knife when she was only twenty-eight, when the ordinary excess turned to flowers that never stopped blooming. Afterward, until she dies, she buys clothes fearlessly, unfashionably wearing white even after Labor Day and before Memorial Day Looking back, she quickly folds her past into fabric older than youth
A teacher and writer for over forty years, Karen Kilcup is the Elizabeth Rosenthal Professor at UNC Greensboro. Her collection The Art of Restoration (2023) received the 2021 Winter Goose Poetry Prize, and her chapbook Red Appetite (2023) received the 2022 Helen Kay Chapbook Poetry Prize. A second chapbook will appear in days, and Pine Row Press will publish her second collection, Feathers and Wedges, in April 2024.